While talking to my kids about the day, I realized I was on acting like a tool and needed to re-center myself spiritually. I thought of what I could do and I remembered the Light the World Advent Calendar my church put out this year. On the 7th it shows the following:
So I decided exercise some faith, forget my troubles and act. I talked to my kids about it and said we should donate as there may be some families going without. I looked up a good organization and saw that a donation could provide 4 meals for every dollar donated. I won't get into how much, but as I thought about sharing multiple meals; the anger poisoning my heart was lifted like a tangible weight. A deep sense of gratitude washed over me and I knew the Lord was pleased with my decision. You can chalk this up to all kinds of explanations, but I know it came by the power of God and I nearly wept at my computer considering my selfish pride and the cares of my day compared to others.
I am so grateful for opportunities Jesus gives us to live like Him. I miss many (most) of them, but when I listen and then follow Him, nothing can express the joy and peace I feel. Its what keeps me going and looking forward to a more perfect day. I hope if you are reading this you will also feel inspired to follow Him and let His light shine in your life.